The New Year's Night of a Miserable Man

IN the lone stillness of the New-year's Night
An old man at his window stood, and turned
His dim eyes to the firmament, where, bright
And pure, a million rolling planets burned,
And then down on the earth all cold and white,
And felt that moment that of all who mourned

And groaned upon its bosom, none there were
With his deep wretchedness and great despair.
For, near him lay his grave — hidden from view
Not by the flowers of Youth, but by the snows
Of Age alone. In torturing thought he flew
Over the Past, and on his memory rose

That picture of his life which Conscience drew,
With all its fruits — Diseases, Sins, and Woes;
A ruined frame, a blighted soul, dark years
Of Agony, Remorse, and withering Fears.
Like spectres now his bright Youth-days came back,
And that cross-road of Life where, when a boy,

His father placed him first: its right-hand track
Leads to a land of Glory, Peace, and Joy,
Its left to wildernesses waste and black,
Where snakes and plagues and poison-winds destroy.
Which had he trod? Alas! the serpents hung
Coiled round his heart, their venom on his tongue.

Sunk in unutterable grief, he cried,
"Restore my youth to me! Oh, GOD! restore
My morn of Life! Oh, father! be my guide,
And let me, let me chuse my path once more!"
But on the wide waste air his ravings died

Away, and all was silent as before.
His youth had glided by, fleet as the wave,
His father came not; he was in his grave.
Strange lights flashed flickering by: a star was falling;
Down to the miry marsh he saw it rush —
Like me I he thought, and oh! that thought was galling,

And hot and heartwrung tears began to gush.
Sleepwalkers crossed his eyes in shapes appalling;
Gaunt windmills lifted up their arms to crush;
And skeleton monsters rose up from the dim
Pits of the charnelhouse, and glared on him!
Amid these overboiling bursts of feeling,

Rich music, heralding the young year's birth,
Rolled from a distant steeple, like the pealing
Of some celestial organ o'er the earth:
Milder emotions over him came stealing;
He felt the soul's unpurchasable worth.
"Return!" again he cried, imploringly;

"Oh, my lost Youth! return, return to me!
AND YOUTH RETURNED, and Age withdrew its terrors.
Still was he young, for he had dreamed the whole;
But faithful is the image Conscience mirrors
When whirlwind passions darken not the soul.
Alas! too real were his sins and errors,

Too truly had he made the earth his goal;
He wept, and thanked his GOD that, with the will,
He had the power, to choose the right path still.
Here, youthful reader, ponder! and if thou,
Like him, art reeling over the Abyss,
And shakest off Sin's iron bondage now,

This ghastly dream may prove thy guide to bliss;
But, should Age once be written on thy brow
Its wrinkles will not be a dream, like this.
Mayest vainly pour thy tears above the Urn
Of thy departed Youth — it never will return!