Job 10:13: Why am I, Lord, at life's sad dose

Why am I, Lord, at life's sad dose
Unsaved, unhappy, and unclean,
Abandon'd to my inbred foes,
O'erwhelm'd with wretchedness and sin,
A mystery to myself am I,
Nor can into Thy counsel pry:
2 1 know not what my God hath will'd.
To save, or finally depart;
The deep design is still conceal'd,
The love or anger in Thy heart;
Inexplicably dark to me;
But known are all Thy works to Thee.