The Love Sonnets of Proteus, Gods and False Gods, LXXXII: He would lead a better Life

I am tired of folly, tired of my own ways,
Love is a strife. I do not want to strive
If I had foes I now would make my peace.
If I less wedded were I now would wive.
I would do service to my kind, contrive
Something of good for men, some happiness
For those who in the world still love and live,
And, as my fathers did, so end my days.
I would earn praise, I too, of honest men.
I would repent in sackcloth if needs be.
I would serve God and expiate my sin,
Abjuring love and thee — ay, even thee.
I would do this, dear love. But what am I
To will or do ? As we have lived we die.